Believe–An Audio Post

In 1998, I emerged from a doomed marriage into a strange new world. I had been married from the age of eighteen. For reasons I never understood, my music had been a point of contention in the marriage. At some point–young, confused, yearning for peace and normalcy–I agreed to give up my musical dreams. But my acquiescence in this matter was not heart-felt. In my head–the place in which I increasingly dwelt–I knew I could never stop playing music. Asking me to quit was like asking a bird not to fly…I believe this was probably the point of the demand.  I could not keep the music inside, so I began to live a quiet, secret second life. Strange as it may seem, this second life was what most would term a “normal” life. And in this life, I continued to compose and to play music. In fact, a Steinway Grand in the Memorial Union of Oregon State University was my constant friend; I would sit and close my eyes and imagine a beautiful world and the sound waves emanating from the open lid of the grand would transport me away.

In 1999, a friend with a music studio set up a digital recorder with a stereo compressor microphone on the big Steinway. He punched “record” and I sat down and improvised for about an hour. We repeated the process the next evening. I carried these two recording sessions around with me for the next 8 years or so before finally breaking them down into their component pieces. A couple of years ago, I finished this process and sent the final, mixed songs up to Sonic Media studios in Portland, Oregon for final mastering. All that remains is to send it off for duplication and CD production. It just seems that things keep getting in the way of this. Or perhaps I am dragging my feet. It is sometimes annoying to be a pianist; the size of the instrument presents barriers to the promotional shows required to sell one’s CD’s.

I’ve included a track from this piano CD, Ready to Wait, for you to hear. Click on the link below. God bless!

The song is titled “Believe”